It is clear to me that a reaction of fear, morbidity, and ain’t it awful in response to the facts about the global experience of Covid19 does not serve my intention to move through this “time” with ease and grace.
I am also clear that my peaceful attitude does not exempt me from experiencing deep sadness for the sudden and sobering loss that has taken place on the planet. The pandemic impacts all of us at various degrees as we stand together at the threshold of uncertainty in the midst of suffering and grief.
I like being informed by the medical experts’ findings and recommendations. The reports of their scientific studies support me in the decisions I make as I straddle the fence of being in this world but not of it. In other words, I take seriously what is going on and at the same time I heed Ernest Holmes’ words: “to desert the Truth in the hour of need is to prove that we do not know the Truth.”
Seeming contradictions cause me to reflect on my beliefs about life and the substantiality of my faith.
So, I ponder, …is there some deep lesson the virus is trying to teach us, or:
- Is it all chance like “a seed upon the wind; a helpless, hopeless entity, tossed and turned by the ever-changing events of the world with no purpose or volition of its own?”1
- Is it “the logical and necessary outcome” of an impersonal law of nature, a law that responds to the consciousness of humanity? 2
- Is it “chemicalization;” a term to describe “the upheaval produced when immortal Truth is destroying erroneous mortal belief…., forcing impurities to pass away?” 3
These inquiries into Truth illumine my consciousness.
My human nature concludes: ‘I just don’t know…I have no answers.’
My spiritual nature whispers:
Embracing the mystical I AM, I find myself being lifted even higher into the cloud of unknowing – no longer dividing myself in parts, i.e., my human nature and my spiritual nature; but rather, identifying with something that is so vast that it is beyond words and concepts.
I AM …is high mysticism.
It is the perfect rose that takes a statuesque stance in Robbin’s garden with no evidence of its origin.
I AM is the exquisite beauty of the cardinal that perches itself on a limb near my patio and watches me with great interest as I go about my chores.
I AM is the announcement that affirms: There is only One Life – that Life is God.
I AM is Perfect Peace.
So, I ponder, … What is mine to do?
God magnifies Itself in a most magnificent way through my existence.
by Robbin G. Ruffner, RScP Emeritus